This isn't something I normally do, but I wanted to open up about some of my motivations for my most recent promo "God's Gonna Cut You Down."And before you get worried, despite the content being pretty hard hitting, this isn't another "DA TRUF" thread.

As those of you who follow my writing, all three of you, know, I have been exploring the pending demise of my previous character The Engineer for months. Part of the reason I decided to get into the angle of The Engineer getting cancer and slowly fading away was because it was helping me deal with some real life fears about my own father's cancer, and coming to terms with his eventual demise. It has helped....a little, in it's own unique way.

But then, life decided to throw a curveball, as it does, and I recently ended up experiencing the death of a different family member quite unexpectedly. Those who know me know that I don't deal with death well at all, and it struck me just how random this was. And how death is rarely this practiced, deliberate thing but often an act of unpredicted chaos, and how much of life is like that. How fast life can come at you.

So, both for reasons of dramatic purpose and to give a random, jarring, and more realistic take on the demise of a loved one, I decided to have Engy pass away in God's Gonna Cut You Down, almost as an aside. Little fanfare, little drama....just bam....gone. Because that's how it usually goes. I did allow him some last words, but it still feels like not enough of a send off. And quite frankly, I thought that was appropriately real. Because we never get enough time. And the people we love never (or rarely) get the sendoff we'd chose for them. It's out of our hands. Chaos.

I might still explore his demise more in the future, but for now, this paltry and appropriately real take is about it. It's never enough. It never is.

Thanks for reading this. Now I return you to your usual debauchery. Oh, and if anyone else wants to piggy back off of this and talk about how they use real life experiences as inspiration, feel free. Sometimes that's both cathartic and, from a practical standpoint, useful for developing one's writing.